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A Prayer Composed by Saint John Fisher
Help me, most loving father, help me with thy mighty grace. Succour
me with thy most gracious favour. Rescue me from these manifold perils
that I am in, for unless thou wilt of thy infinite goodness relieve
me, I am but as a lost creature. Thy strict commandment is that I should
love thee with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my mind, with
all my power. And thus, I know, I do not, but am full far short and
wide therefrom; which think I perceive by the other loves that I have
had of thy creatures heretofore. For such as I sincerely loved, I loved
them so that I seldom did forget them. They were ever in my remembrance
and almost continually mine heart was occupied with them and my thought
ran ever upon them as well absent as present. Specially when they were
absent I much desired to have their presence and to be there where they
were, or else my heart were never in any rightful quiety. But alas,
my dear father, I am not in this condition towards thee. For I keep
thee not in my remembrance nor bear thee in my thought nor occupy my
heart with thee so often as I should, but for every trifle that cometh
to my mind I let thee slip and fall out thereof. And for every fantasy
that stirreth in my heart I set thee aside, shortly forget thee. I suffer
many a trifling thought occupy my soul at liberty, but with thee, my
dear father, I have lightly done, and forthwith turn me to, the remembrance
of thy creatures and so tarry with thee but a short while, the delight
in thy creatures so pulleth and draweth me hither and thither, my wretched
desires so blind me. This false world so deceiveth me that I forget
thee, which art my most loving father and art so desirous to have my
heart and love. What are thy creatures but creatures made by thee? Thou
made me and them of naught and thou far incomparably passeth all them.
And what are my desires, when they are set on thy creatures and not
in an order to thee, what are they but wretched and sinful affections?
And finally what is this world but a miserable exile, full of perils
and evils far unlike that glorious country where thou art resident and
sheweth thy most excellent Majesty in wonderful glory? There thou art
clearly seen to all thy blessed angels and saints of thy most highly
triumphant court. They be there ever present before thy blessed face
and behold thy Majesty continually face to face. O my dear father, here
should be mine heart, here should be my desire and remembrancy. I should
long to have sight of thy most blessed face, I should earnestly desire
to see thy country and kingdom, I should ever wish to be there present
with thee and thy most glorious court. But this, alas, I do not. And
therefore I sorrow at my grievous negligence, I weep for my abominable
forgetfulness, I lament my vileness, yea, my very madness, that thus
for trifles and vanities forget my most dear and loving father. Alas,
woe is me! What shall I do? Wither may I turn me? To whom shall I resort
for help? Where shall I seek for any remedy against the worldly and
earthly waywardness of my heart? Whither should I rather go than to
my father, to my most loving father, to my most merciful father, to
him that of his infinite love and mercy hath given me boldness to call
him father? Whose son Jesu my saviour hath taught me thus to call him,
and to think verily that he is my father, yea, and a more loving father
than is any natural father unto his child. These are his words speaking
unto the natural fathers of this world when ye that are infect with
evil can liberally give unto your children good gifts, how much rather
your heavenly father shall give a good spirit to them that ask it of
him. These works, most gracious father, are the words of thy most dearly
beloved son, Jesu, wherein he teaches us that thou art our very father
and maketh promise on thy behalf that thou shalt give thine holy spirit
unto them that ask thy son or thee studiously. Thou willest that we
should believe him and faithfully trust his words. For thou testified
of him that he was thine entirely beloved son and bade us hear him and
give a full faith unto his words. Wherefore we may be certain and sure
of three things. The first is that thou art our father, the second that
thou art a more kind and loving father unto us than are the carnal fathers
of this world unto their children. The third, that thou wilt give, to
such as devoutly ask it of thee, thy most holy spirit. We may be well
assured that for thine inestimable goodness, and for the honour of thy
name and everlasting truth thou wilt not disappoint these promises,
for as much as they were made by thy most entirely beloved son Christ
Jesu whom thou sent into this world to make the truth certain and to
confirm the same unto us by the blood which he shed for us on his cross.
O father, then, whither shall I turn in my necessity rather than to
thee which have me call thee by this name, a name of much love and tenderness,
of much delight and pleasure, a name which stirreth the heart with much
hope and constancy and many other delectable affections. And if nothing
were told me but only this name, it might suffice to make me steadfastly
trust that thou, which hast commanded me to call thee by this name father,
will help me and succour me at my need when I sue unto thee; but much
rather because my saviour thy son Christ Jesu hath assured me that thou
art a more kind and more loving father unto me than was mine own natural
father. This assurance made by the most entirely beloved son should
specially move both thee and me. First it should move me to have an
hope and a confidence that thou wilt deal with me according to the same
promise. Second, it should also move thee to perform this promise effectually
and so to show thyself a kind and loving father in this my petition.
My petition, most dear father, is agreeable to that same promise made
by thy most entirely beloved son my saviour Jesu. I ask none other thing
but thy good and holy spirit to be given unto me according to that same
promise which he promised.
I know, most gracious father, that thou art here present with me albeit
I see thee not. But thou both seest me and hearest me and no secrecy
of my heart is hid from thee. Thou hearest that I now ask thine holy
spirit and thou knowest that I now pray therefore and that I am very
desirous to have the same. Lo! Dear father, with all the enforcement
of my heart I beseech thee to give thine holy spirit unto me. Wherefore
unless thou wilt disappoint the promise of thy son Jesu thou canst not
but give me this holy spirit; so by this means I shall be fully relieved
of that misery whereof I complained unto thy goodness at the beginning.
Thy most holy spirit he shall make me to love thee with all my heart,
and with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my power, for he is
the author of all good love, he is the very furnace of charity and he
is the fountain of all gracious affections and godly desires. He is
the spiritual fire that kindles in the heart of them where he enters
all gracious love; he fills their souls in whom he is received with
the abundance of charity; he makes their minds sweetly to burn in all
godly desires and gives unto them strength and power courageously to
follow all ghostly affections and specially towards thee. Wherefore,
dear father, when thou hast strictly commanded me thus to love thee
with all my heart and thus would I right gladly do (but without thy
help and without thy holy spirit I cannot perform the same), I beseech
thee to shed upon my heart thy most holy spirit by whose gracious presence
I may be warmed, heated and kindled with the spiritual fire of charity
and with the sweetly burning love of all godly affections, that I may
fastly set my heart, soul and mind upon thee and assuredly trust that
thou art my very loving father and according to the same trust I may
love thee with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my mind and
all my power. Amen.
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